Latin, meaning “to perceive, think, experience, judge, be aware”
You cannot erase her from your head.
You conjure her up when you need her
to feel safe,
to feel cared about,
to feel loved;
to have someone
who will openly listen to you
and never judge you
or turn you away
without a good reason.
She taught you how to just be
you find yourself
not being able to be
It should probably be concerning
how much of the people you meet
and care about
end up inside you.
Your friend’s zany quotes.
Your sister’s insistence
on making inanimate objects talk.
Your mom’s love for nature.
Your dad’s anxiety.
We are all just floating nervous systems
patched around skin and bone and muscle,
all of our nerves functioning in the same way.
It’s crazy how the one thing that makes us individuals
is the people we surround ourselves with.
The decisions we make.
The reflex time.
The action potential
of our neurons.
The one thing though
that has always been true
and will never stop being true
is the fact that
Very rarely brain,
Your emotions guide you
into every situation you end up in.
Sometimes, it is the best decision you could have ever made.
Sometimes, it backfires on you,
learning the hard way
and you have to figure out how to clean up
the mess you yourself made.
Sometimes, it hurts.
The nights spent crying everything out of you.
The mornings spent laying in bed
because getting up has always been the hardest part of your day.
The afternoons you spent
wondering who you could have possibly scared off next
with the one thing that guides you
everywhere you go.
The one thing that makes you you.
Sometimes, it is your favorite thing
because even though everyone feels emotions,
yours cause you to see the beauty in the world around you.
Her curls that dangle above her left eye.
Her fidgeting with the small golden chain around her neck,
taking it on and off again
in debating on even wearing it in the first place.
Her little eyebrow raise and twitch
in the corner of her mouth
when she reads.
These tiny quirks
revealing the true colors
Revealing the buds
that bloom into beautiful roses.
Revealing the rivers
that freely flow
in our backyards.
Revealing the inner human
in us all.
Whether we are 13
we are all human,
And isn’t that
the most beautiful thing