Your father is attempting to read to you

and you won’t listen.

Your unkempt blonde hair waving

every which way

as you push around a bright blue stroller

that holds your dark blue winter coat.

Pink hair clips being the only thing

keeping it all together.

I look at your…

You give away your soul

like I give away my heart.

I crush your bones

as I consume the bread

that’s supposed to be your body.

Doesn’t it hurt?

Constantly giving yourself away

to people who don’t even know you?

I drink the wine

that’s supposed to be your blood.

…

Seeing them together makes you want to cry.

To evict yourself from your own room.

To spill into the cracks in the sidewalk,

hoping no one will notice as you burn away.

You’re suddenly the ghost in your own room.

No one seeing you,

everyone passing right through you,

you…

Sinking like a weight in my chair,

heart in my throat,

I want to puke my insides out.

Fairy lights entwining in acid

sitting on a heap on the floor.

Acid burning me from the inside out.

I’m tired.

I stare off into space,

pupils dilated,

words flying around my…

Her long brown hair blows in the wind.

The fire snaking up her long legs

as she sits there, her hands tied to her sides

and to the wooden pole digging into her spine.

You can hear her screams ringing through the air

like church bells,

the fire continuing to…

His long brown hair flows down to his shoulders

and catches the red light of the roller coaster

looming above him,

making his brown eyes under

silver glasses glow

as he scribbles away

in a neon green notebook.

His eyebrows raising in excitement

as his lips form a smile

that…

His brown eyes are wild with excitement

as he thrusts fake swords

and pets fake cats

in the theatre class we’re taking together.

His shoulder length brown hair flying

every which way as his eyebrows

raise with emotion,

his little facial expressions so clear

people from back in America

can…

I stand, staring at the grey wall

in front of me,

letting the hot water

of my shower box prison

burn my skin away.

The bags under my eyes,

the acne on my face,

the freckles dotting my back.

I look down at the body I’ve come to know

and…