Clear blue sky,
the smell of cotton candy
fills the air as I
feel the grass poke
at the backs of my legs.
People chat beside me
as the band plays a march
I do not know.
A march I do not know
but still plays
within my heart.
I dance with all my soul,
even for the marches,
clap along in time to the beat,
sing if I know the words,
soak in each note as I
lay looking at the sky.
A field of thousands of people lay quiet,
waiting in frozen time for that first note.
That first trill.
That swing in motion.
Frozen time.
Freeze time so I can stay here,
The grass prickling at the back of my neck.
The sky cradling me,
telling me “it’s going to be okay.
You will be okay.”
You once told me
that there is so much life to live for.
I couldn’t believe you then
but as the fireworks
boom within my heart,
light up my night sky,
my stars,
I know that there is so much life worth living for.
So much life I deserve to see.
As a friend once told me,
I am exactly what I need to be.
Here, now,
always,
forever.
